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00:00:11Oh, sir... we, um... we're just...
00:00:16Yes, I can see that.
00:00:24What was that all about?
00:00:25I'd call it an example of indiscreet shipboard fraternization.
00:00:29Really? Sorry I missed it.
00:00:31Deck 6.
00:00:36( chuckling )
00:00:38Thank you for your help, Tom.
00:00:39Yeah. See you later. Right.
00:00:45Here's the cabbage you asked for.
00:00:48Is something wrong?
00:00:54What's this?
00:00:56A spawn beetle.
00:00:58Oh, they cross-pollinate the Oblissian cabbage.
00:01:01Have you ever seen such fascinating striations?
00:01:05Oh, isn't it beautiful?
00:01:08I doubt the Captain would think so if she found it crawling around in her salad.
00:01:14( growls )
00:01:15There is something wrong.
00:01:17What is it?
00:01:18No, nothing. I'm just very busy.
00:01:21( clears throat )
00:01:24So you're seeing Tom Paris later.
00:01:29What?
00:01:30No, not that I know of.
00:01:34He said, "See you later."
00:01:37You said, "Right."
00:01:39Is he helping you in the airponics bay now?
00:01:42He was just helping me carry these.
00:01:45How thoughtful.
00:01:47Neelix, this is getting ridiculous.
00:01:48You're imagining things that aren't there.
00:01:50You're such an innocent!
00:01:54I see the way he looks at you.
00:01:57I used to look at women that way. I know what it means.
00:02:00Janeway to the senior staff. Please report to the Bridge.
00:02:06Take care.
00:02:15Thank you for bringing the cabbage.
00:02:17I can handle this from here, thank you.
00:02:29We've detected a strange energy configuration off the port bow.
00:02:32Any idea what it is?
00:02:34It appears to be some sort of magnetic disturbance.
00:02:37We're going to take a closer look.
00:02:43You seem a little preoccupied, Commander.
00:02:45This morning, I interrupted a couple who were kissing in the turbolift.
00:02:49And I've been wondering if we should establish a policy regarding... fraternization.
00:02:56Well... the couple in question might be urged to show a bit more discretion, but Starfleet has always been reluctant to regulate people's personal lives.
00:03:08Of course, but we're in a unique situation here.
00:03:10The development of intimate relationships might cause us problems that wouldn't arise in other ships.
00:03:16I understand what you're saying, but... we're a long way from home.
00:03:22Everyone is lonely, and all we have is each other.
00:03:26I think, eventually, people will begin to pair off.
00:03:30Including you?
00:03:35As Captain, that's a luxury I don't have.
00:03:38Besides, I intend for us to be home before... before Mark gives me up for dead.
00:03:45We're in visual range, Captain.
00:03:47On screen.
00:03:56CHAKOTAY: Looks like some type of energetic vapor.
00:04:00Magnify.
00:04:05Space-dwelling life-forms.
00:04:06Full sensor scan, Mr. Kim.
00:04:08Their internal energy patterns appear to be consistent with discrete organic processes.
00:04:12Captain, I'd like the chance to study them at close range.
00:04:15So would I, Commander.
00:04:17But let's not get too close.
00:04:19We wouldn't want to disturb their natural behavior.
00:04:21Half impulse, Mr. Paris. Take us into bio-scanner range.
00:04:24Aye, Captain.
00:07:05The swarm is not particularly dense, Captain.
00:07:07I estimate their number at fewer than 2,000.
00:07:09They're really moving. KIM: He's right.
00:07:12They've accelerated to a velocity of approximately 1,000 kilometers per second.
00:07:16It's possible we're frightening them.
00:07:18Keep us within scanner range, Lieutenant, but try to avoid rapid acceleration.
00:07:21Aye, Captain.
00:07:22Take a look at this.
00:07:26See the way they propel themselves?
00:07:31JANEWAY: They seem to flagellate, almost like protozoa.
00:07:34Exactly, but they're achieving incredible speeds-- over 3,000 kilometers per second.
00:07:40Ensign Wildman, scan the field for repeating patterns.
00:07:43Maybe they're capable of some type of communication.
00:07:45Aye, Captain.
00:07:47CHAKOTAY: Their internal anatomy's also very unusual.
00:07:50They don't appear to have a digestive system of any kind, but they have an extremely porous outer covering.
00:07:54My guess would be that they absorb nutrients directly from space.
00:07:58Incredible.
00:07:59A space-dwelling life-form capable of metabolizing inorganic matter.
00:08:03WILDMAN: Particle density in this part of space isn't very high.
00:08:06That might explain why they have to keep moving so fast.
00:08:09Feeding at 3,000 kilometers per second.
00:08:12Not exactly leisurely dining, is it?
00:08:22( door chimes )
00:08:31( door chimes )
00:08:36Come in.
00:08:44For you, sweeting.
00:08:46Thank you.
00:08:48Hmm... what's the occasion?
00:08:50Oh, no occasion.
00:08:53I... I just wanted to apologize.
00:08:57Apologize?
00:08:59For the way I acted in the Mess Hall.
00:09:03I-I was jealous.
00:09:05I know.
00:09:06I just wish you could trust me.
00:09:09It has nothing to do with trusting you.
00:09:12It's him I don't trust.
00:09:14I've seen his kind before.
00:09:15They're all over the Quadrant, as a matter of fact.
00:09:18They prey on naive, sheltered young women like you. What are you looking for?
00:09:24A vase. Don't!
00:09:27What's this?
00:09:29Nothing. Just a snack.
00:09:32A Terran delicacy.
00:09:33Ensign Wildman told me about it.
00:09:36Mashed potatoes with butter.
00:09:38It's delicious.
00:09:41Would you like to try it?
00:09:47Ugh. Awful.
00:09:48How can you eat it?
00:09:50I can't stop eating it.
00:09:52I've had six bowls.
00:09:53And the reason it tastes so strange--
00:09:55I put a container of nitrogenated soil in it.
00:09:59Dirt?
00:10:00You're eating dirt?
00:10:02Why? I don't know, but this morning...
00:10:07What?
00:10:09You remember the spawn beetles?
00:10:13You... you didn't...?
00:10:19Neelix to Sick Bay.
00:10:20Prepare to receive an emergency patient.
00:10:23I'm not sick.
00:10:25I feel fine.
00:10:27I just can't... stop eating.
00:10:30We are going to get to the bottom of this.
00:10:33Come on. No! I'm not going!
00:10:35We are going to Sick Bay. No!
00:10:37I'll call Security unless you come with me. Holy...
00:10:40Come on. ( muffled ): Stop it!
00:10:42Put me down!
00:10:44They're changing course again, Captain, and accelerating. Should I follow them?
00:10:50I'm concerned that we're disturbing them.
00:10:51Let's drop back a bit, give them a little more room.
00:10:54Yes, ma'am.
00:10:57KIM: Captain, we're accelerating.
00:10:59We're getting closer to the swarm.
00:11:00Mr. Paris?
00:11:02I'm trying to slow down, Captain.
00:11:05KIM: Our velocity doesn't correspond to impulse reactor output.
00:11:08We're moving much faster than we ought to be.
00:11:10They seem to be... pulling us toward them.
00:11:14TUVOK: Sensors indicate an EM resonance field.
00:11:17The creatures seem to be creating their own magnetic wake. That is what is pulling the ship.
00:11:21We're getting closer.
00:11:23Mr. Paris, reverse thrusters.
00:11:25Helm controls aren't responding, Captain.
00:11:27Mr. Tuvok, raise shields.
00:11:29( console beeping )
00:11:31Nonfunctional, Captain.
00:11:32They're pulling us in.
00:11:47Damage report.
00:11:48Life support's functioning normally, Captain, but there's a huge fluctuation in the EPS grids.
00:11:53It's wreaking havoc with the impulse engines.
00:11:56Warp drive's still on line.
00:11:58One burst, and we'd be out of here.
00:11:59But our exhaust could seriously harm the creatures.
00:12:02Janeway to Torres. Do you have any thoughts about how to get us out of this swarm without engaging warp engines?
00:12:07We might try something like a targ scoop.
00:12:10Can you enlighten us, Lieutenant?
00:12:12Klingons put them on the front of ground assault vehicles.
00:12:15They emit a high-frequency tone that disperses targ herds in their path.
00:12:20I can modify the main deflector
00:12:22to create an inverted magnetic pulse.
00:12:24Project it toward the swarm.
00:12:27It might be enough to... nudge the creatures out of the way.
00:12:30Good idea, Lieutenant.
00:12:32Proceed.
00:12:33You're sure the beetles weren't poisonous?
00:12:36Or the flowers?
00:12:38There are no toxins present in her system.
00:12:40Doctor, why is she eating all these strange things?
00:12:44What's wrong with her?
00:12:46I am conducting an examination in order to determine that.
00:12:49But don't you have any ideas?
00:12:51Her unusual appetite may merely indicate a nutrient deficiency.
00:12:55It is not unusual for humanoids to crave foods that are rich in the very vitamins and minerals that their bodies are lacking.
00:13:01You... you can't mean my body lacks dirt.
00:13:07Her body temperature is elevated 3.9 degrees.
00:13:10She's burning up.
00:13:12And I'm detecting elevated levels of electrophoretic activity in her nervous system.
00:13:16You have to bring them down.
00:13:18There is increased electrophoretic activity in the ship's atmosphere, probably created by the creatures we're studying.
00:13:24You mean, there's a connection between what's happening to Kes and those creatures?
00:13:28You have to do something about it!
00:13:30You are making it impossible for me to think, much less treat my patient.
00:13:34You must leave.
00:13:35I won't. Kes needs me.
00:13:37Leave now or I will call Security.
00:13:39You can't talk to me that way.
00:13:42This is my Sick Bay and I will decide what goes on here.
00:13:45But... Get out!
00:13:48I'll be back.
00:13:49Don't worry about a thing.
00:13:55( sighs )
00:14:07Captain, may I speak with you?
00:14:08It's a matter of some urgency.
00:14:10What is it, Neelix?
00:14:12I have been thrown out of Sick Bay.
00:14:17And I'm just wondering if you feel it's appropriate for a hologram to banish a flesh and blood person, who should have the right to be at the bedside of his loved one, who is extremely ill.
00:14:27Kes is extremely ill?
00:14:30The hologram doesn't have a clue as to what's wrong with her.
00:14:33Though it may have something to do with these creatures.
00:14:36But he still won't let me offer comfort to the woman I love at a time when my place is clearly by her side.
00:14:43Just how is Kes being affected by the swarm?
00:14:46That's what I wanted to know, but before I got any answers,
00:14:50I was summarily dismissed.
00:14:51Sick Bay to Bridge. Janeway here.
00:14:53Captain, I think you'd better come down here.
00:14:55There's a bit of a problem.
00:14:57I'm on my way. Commander, you have the Bridge.
00:15:00Notify me immediately of any change in our status.
00:15:02Aye, Captain.
00:15:03( Kes panting )
00:15:05I was conducting tests.
00:15:07She was none too cooperative, let me assure you.
00:15:09Then suddenly, she screeched and shoved me out of the way, went into my office and proceeded to erect a-a force field at the door.
00:15:15I can't lower it.
00:15:18She's keeping me out of my own office.
00:15:20NEELIX: Sweeting.
00:15:21( gasping )
00:15:22What's wrong?
00:15:24Please come out.
00:15:27I was able to complete several tests before she became delirious.
00:15:31Her fever has increased and her pulse and blood pressure are dangerously high.
00:15:34Do you have any idea what's causing these symptoms?
00:15:37I suspect it's the electrophoretic levels being created by the swarm.
00:15:41We should leave immediately.
00:15:43Unfortunately, that's not an option at the moment, but we're working on it.
00:15:47There's one more thing.
00:15:49I discovered a strange growth on her back.
00:15:52It's unlike any other tumorous substance
00:15:54I've ever seen or studied before.
00:15:55And it was not there the last time I examined her.
00:15:58( panting )
00:16:01I'll try to talk to her.
00:16:07Kes, please come out.
00:16:09You can eat anything you want.
00:16:14Captain.
00:16:16Why don't you let me try?
00:16:23Kes, please listen to me.
00:16:28We think you're being affected by a swarm of space-dwelling life-forms.
00:16:32We're doing everything we can to get away from them.
00:16:34And when we do, you'll probably start feeling better.
00:16:39Are you... saying that's not what's wrong with you?
00:16:46( sighs deeply )
00:16:48Kes... please, let me come in.
00:16:52Tell me what it is.
00:16:54Maybe I can help.
00:17:17Shh.
00:17:20Shh.
00:17:22It's going to be all right.
00:17:28Now... tell me what is happening to you.
00:17:36Di-did the Doctor tell you he found something growing on my back?
00:17:40Yes, a growth of some kind.
00:17:43It's the mitral sac.
00:17:45It's where my child would grow.
00:17:49I'm going through the elogium-- the time of change-- when my body prepares for fertilization.
00:18:01Humans go through the same kind of process.
00:18:05It's called puberty.
00:18:07But I'm too young.
00:18:09Much too young.
00:18:11It usually happens between the ages of four and five.
00:18:17I'm-I'm not even two yet.
00:18:20Listen to me.
00:18:22All your body's metabolic activity has increased.
00:18:26It's possible your reproductive processes are being accelerated as a result.
00:18:30I'm not ready.
00:18:32We're going to get you through this, Kes.
00:18:34The Doctor will monitor you constantly.
00:18:37You don't understand.
00:18:39The elogium occurs only once.
00:18:42If I am ever going to have a child, it has to be now!
00:18:50No change, Captain.
00:18:52We're still being pulled along with the swarm.
00:18:55PARIS: Heading 121, mark 7.
00:18:58Speed now 6,000 kilometers per second.
00:19:01All systems are functioning within normal parameters.
00:19:04How is Torres coming with the modifications to the main deflector? Her last report estimated they'd be finished in another half hour.
00:19:10Let me know as soon as she's ready.
00:19:11Join me, Commander?
00:19:17Kes is terribly frightened.
00:19:19She's had no time to prepare for this, and the decision has to be made in the next
00:19:2440 or 50 hours.
00:19:26She's going to discuss it with Neelix, but... there are so many unknowns.
00:19:34There might be risks in procreating this early.
00:19:37And of course there's no guarantee they're genetically compatible, or that Neelix has any interest in becoming a father.
00:19:46Seems your concerns about fraternization were... prophetic.
00:19:51I wasn't even thinking about procreation, but I suppose it's... the inevitable outcome.
00:20:02We should consider the fact that it might be necessary for the crew to start having children.
00:20:06It might take us a long time to get home.
00:20:10If it does take 75 years, we're going to need a replacement crew in about half that time.
00:20:16( sighs )
00:20:18Who'd have thought we'd be considering a generational ship when we were ordered on a three-week mission.
00:20:24I know, but it's a problem we have to face now.
00:20:29What would that mean for the children?
00:20:33What kind of life would we be giving them?
00:20:36Aboard a starship, traveling through a potentially hostile part of space.
00:20:42And are we equipped to provide for their needs-- child-care, educational facilities.
00:20:48We'd be building an entire community on board this ship.
00:20:51That's a massive commitment.
00:20:53Are you prepared to tell them they can't have children?
00:20:56I can't do that.
00:21:01And I've made it clear to Kes that it's her choice whether to have a child or not, but...
00:21:06Mmm.
00:21:08There aren't any easy answers here... for any of us.
00:21:17Are you saying that, unless you conceive now, you'll never be able to?
00:21:22Yes, and I need you to help me decide, because I would want you to mate with me.
00:21:30( gasps )
00:21:33I'm... I'm... I'm... I'm... I'm... I'm... honored.
00:21:38But are you entirely certain it would be safe?
00:21:42Safe?
00:21:45You're so young.
00:21:48Is it dangerous for you to conceive a child at your age?
00:21:52I don't know. I've never known anyone as young as I am who had a baby.
00:22:02If you never had a child, would you... be terribly unhappy?
00:22:07Yes!
00:22:08I-I mean...
00:22:10I think so.
00:22:14I don't know.
00:22:17I always assumed I'd be a mother someday-- just not so soon.
00:22:25What about you?
00:22:27Didn't you think you'd be a father someday?
00:22:29Well, to be honest, uh...
00:22:33I've never given it much thought.
00:22:37Until now, my life has been so... itinerant.
00:22:41There's no way I could have provided the stability a child would need.
00:22:47But now it's different, isn't it?
00:22:50Well... yes.
00:22:54But... raising a child on a starship-- that's hardly what I would call the ideal environment.
00:23:03You don't want a child, do you?
00:23:06That's not it at all.
00:23:08I'm just trying to look at all sides of the issue.
00:23:14Bringing a child into the world... it's a huge responsibility.
00:23:19I know you'd want to be sure we're both up to the task.
00:23:24I-I mean, somebody would have to keep their eye on the little guy all the time, or he'd be off sticking his finger into an EM conduit or playing with the plasma injectors.
00:23:35That's right. That's called being a parent.
00:23:41What about your medical studies?
00:23:43You wouldn't be able to continue them if you had a child. Of course I would!
00:23:46You're just making excuses.
00:23:49All you're thinking about is yourself.
00:23:51How much trouble a child would be for you.
00:23:53Look!
00:23:56What's that?
00:23:57The ipasaphor.
00:23:59It makes the mating bond possible.
00:24:01It does? If we begin, we must stay bonded for six days.
00:24:07Six days?
00:24:09In order to ensure conception.
00:24:11And after the ipasaphor appears, we only have 50 hours to begin the process.
00:24:18So I need to know your answer.
00:24:21Uh, well, uh...
00:24:2450 hours.
00:24:25That's... good.
00:24:31That's good.
00:24:35We can sleep on it.
00:24:39I'll get back to you.
00:24:57( man coughing ) Sorry.
00:24:59I swear I heard you say lots of pepper sauce.
00:25:06What is the lunch special today?
00:25:09Well, actually, I didn't get around to making a lunch special.
00:25:13But we have some lovely gabosti stew left over from last night.
00:25:18Very well, it will do.
00:25:20I've... had quite a run on it as a matter of fact.
00:25:24It seems very popular.
00:25:27If it is all you are serving, that would stand to reason.
00:25:31You can have it with or without pepper sauce.
00:25:33Without.
00:25:53Oh...
00:26:02Mr. Tuvok...
00:26:04I was wondering.
00:26:07You have children, don't you?
00:26:09I have four.
00:26:11Four! My!
00:26:14That's certainly quite a family.
00:26:16Tell me... what's it like being a father?
00:26:23The question is so broad, it is difficult to respond.
00:26:27Well, I mean, it's a lot of responsibility, isn't it?
00:26:31Watching them.
00:26:33Caring for them.
00:26:35Keeping them safe.
00:26:37Giving them an education.
00:26:38That is certainly true.
00:26:41Sounds like it's a lot more trouble than it's worth.
00:26:45Mr. Neelix,
00:26:46I am aware of your situation.
00:26:48It appears you are in some doubt as to the wisdom of becoming a parent.
00:26:53It's just all happening so fast!
00:26:57I don't know what to think. I can only tell you that if you have considerable doubts about fatherhood, it would not be wise to enter into the process.
00:27:05It is so much more overwhelming than one expects that I believe only the most committed should become parents.
00:27:13Ah...
00:27:15That's what I thought. However,
00:27:18I must point out that, as illogical as it seems, being a father can have infinite rewards-- far more than would seem possible.
00:27:27My children occupy a significant portion of my thoughts, now more than ever.
00:27:34I have heard it said that children can bring a lot of joy into one's life.
00:27:40I experience neither joy nor sorrow, but I do believe it is possible.
00:27:48Now that I think about it, it might be fun to have a little guy around.
00:27:53And we could do a lot together.
00:27:57I've got quite a bit I could teach a boy, you know-- survival methods, piloting skills, romantic techniques.
00:28:10If you say so.
00:28:12But I must point out that there is an equal chance that you would have a daughter.
00:28:16A daughter?
00:28:19I don't have anything to teach a daughter.
00:28:21Why would it be any different from what you would teach a son?
00:28:26It just would.
00:28:28She'd learn more from her mother.
00:28:30I have three sons and one daughter.
00:28:33I can assure you, she benefits as much from my presence and guidance as my sons do.
00:28:39It is unfortunate that I must be so far removed from all of them now.
00:28:47I understand.
00:28:50We'll get there, Mr. Vulcan.
00:28:52I'm sure of it.
00:28:56Thank you.
00:28:58You've given me a lot to think about.
00:29:07We're ready to generate the inverted magnetic pulse, Captain. Proceed.
00:29:13Initiating the field.
00:29:15( console beeping )
00:29:18( beeping intensifies )
00:29:19TORRES: It's working.
00:29:20Are the creatures all right, Commander?
00:29:23Yes, Captain, they seem to be fine.
00:29:25Let's try to keep it that way. Thrusters at 200 kph, Mr. Paris.
00:29:28Ease us out of here. Aye, Captain.
00:29:35What are they doing? CHAKOTAY: Hard to know what's prompting that behavior.
00:29:39Maybe they think we're making a hostile move.
00:29:41Report.
00:29:43I'm reading a massive energy drain in all ship systems.
00:29:46Impulse engines are losing power.
00:29:47Captain, some of the life-forms have attached themselves to the warp nacelles.
00:29:51Guidance, navigational and tactical systems are failing.
00:29:54How soon will we clear the swarm, Lieutenant?
00:29:56In a few seconds. We're almost out.
00:29:58Captain, I am detecting a substantial magnetic mass moving rapidly toward the port bow.
00:30:16WILDMAN: It's physiologically similar to the smaller creatures, just a lot bigger.
00:30:20TUVOK: Perhaps it is the parent.
00:30:22Or it could be a difference in gender.
00:30:24It's hard to say without further observation.
00:30:27With all due respect, Captain, haven't we done enough observing?
00:30:30These creatures have attacked the ship's key systems.
00:30:33For all we know, they were setting us up for an attack.
00:30:36It's possible.
00:30:37Mr. Paris, let's keep moving.
00:30:39If we can put some distance between us and the swarm, maybe the ones on our nacelles will drop off and rejoin their friends.
00:30:44Aye, Captain. 200 kph.
00:30:53The larger creature is moving with us.
00:30:56( console beeping ) Now what?
00:30:59The creature has emitted an electrically charged plasma stream.
00:31:02All stop. Damage report.
00:31:06No significant damage, Captain. Shields are holding.
00:31:08A plasma blast is a hostile move.
00:31:11Shouldn't we be thinking about responding?
00:31:13If the creature threatens serious damage to the ship,
00:31:16I'll consider it an enemy.
00:31:18Until then, they're all to be treated as indigenous life-forms behaving normally in their natural habitat. We're the intruders here.
00:31:25Captain, look at this.
00:31:30They're attaching themselves to the large creature the same way they did to us.
00:31:33KIM: And I think I know why.
00:31:35That plasma stream it ejected has almost the same subspace signature as our warp nacelles.
00:31:40Then the smaller creatures are attracted to our subspace emissions.
00:31:44Perhaps in the same way some species are attracted to pheromones.
00:31:47Pheromones?
00:31:50You think it's a sexual attraction?
00:31:53Color change and provocative movement are frequently associated with mating rituals.
00:31:58Then... these guys think we're one of them?
00:32:01Well, their behavior toward us and the large creature is similar.
00:32:05It's possible they've mistaken us for a potential mate.
00:32:10( door chimes ) Yes?
00:32:13Well, order the diapers.
00:32:16We're about to become parents.
00:32:18You mean, you want to mate with me?
00:32:21More than anything.
00:32:23But you were making excuses.
00:32:24I didn't think you wanted to be a father.
00:32:26I just hadn't thought it through.
00:32:29Now that I have, I swear to you I want to do this.
00:32:32And I'll be the best possible father to our child.
00:32:40I know you will.
00:32:42So... what comes next?
00:32:46Before we begin the mating process,
00:32:49I have to go through a certain ritual called the rolisisin.
00:32:53What does that involve?
00:32:55One of my parents has to massage my feet until my tongue begins to swell.
00:33:03Uh, where do you plan to find a parent?
00:33:06If Captain Janeway weren't so busy I'd ask her, but I'm sure the Doctor would do it.
00:33:10Will that work? Since he's not a real person?
00:33:14The Doctor is very real to me.
00:33:16I don't know how I feel about him massaging your feet.
00:33:20It's a ritual. Someone has to do it.
00:33:22Okay. Okay, fine.
00:33:25How long will that take?
00:33:27About an hour.
00:33:31Then I'll be back.
00:33:51Fascinating.
00:33:53The stimulation to the sympathetic nerves must set off a hormonal reaction, which activates glandular activity in the tissues of the tongue.
00:34:01I've never seen this response before.
00:34:03Although in a species known as the Gree, stimulating follicles on the proboscis results in a swelling of the auricular canal.
00:34:09Doctor? Yes?
00:34:12Am I doing the right thing?
00:34:14You'll have to tell me.
00:34:17I know nothing of this ritual.
00:34:19No, I mean, am I doing the right thing by conceiving a child?
00:34:24If I were at home now, my father would be performing the rolisisin with me.
00:34:31It's the time when parent and child move into a new kind of relationship.
00:34:35As the child has her own child, the parent must acknowledge her true adulthood.
00:34:42I see.
00:34:44My father and I were very close.
00:34:48He was such a wise man. I miss him.
00:34:50Sometimes, I think I hear his voice in my head.
00:34:54It's almost as though he were here helping to guide me.
00:34:59I'm sorry.
00:35:03I must be feeling lonely for home.
00:35:06It's probably a result of the elogium...
00:35:10( sighs ) but I really would appreciate your advice.
00:35:17Your help.
00:35:21I need someone's guidance.
00:35:27I can discuss delivery methods... or pediatric situations.
00:35:33I'm afraid I don't have much perspective to offer about becoming a parent.
00:35:40Neither do I.
00:35:44As long as Neelix was opposed to the idea, trying to get out of it,
00:35:48I was certain that I wanted to have a child, but when he said that he wanted one too, suddenly, I was very frightened.
00:35:59Perhaps a statistical survey will offer a context.
00:36:04Among the Breen, pregnancy at a young age is a common event.
00:36:08The Breen, of course, is one of the most warlike of species.
00:36:12And then there are the Scathos.
00:36:14Any woman who conceives a child before her fourth decade is summarily executed.
00:36:18Maybe I just felt I should have a child because I could.
00:36:22There is a powerful biological drive, at times, almost impossible to resist.
00:36:28Species are driven by these urges in order to survive.
00:36:32But isn't that why we have minds-- to look beyond biological urges, to consider their consequences?
00:36:40If I'm going to ask myself to look at those consequences, then I have to ask myself some questions.
00:36:45Am I really ready to have a child?
00:36:51Am I prepared to give that child the attention and devotion it deserves?
00:36:57Am I capable of taking on such a huge responsibility?
00:37:00Oh, there's so much I haven't done.
00:37:03There's so much I want to study and learn.
00:37:06I'm not sure I'm finished growing.
00:37:08How could I help a child grow?
00:37:18If the smaller creatures are sexually attracted to our subspace emissions, then the large one may perceive us as a rival.
00:37:24That plasma burst it sent out might have been aggressive posturing.
00:37:27Then you'd think it would be happy to see us leave.
00:37:29Lieutenant, is there any way we could generate a short burst of impulse?
00:37:32Enough to get us away from this swarm?
00:37:34I could try releasing power from the impulse capacitance cells straight into the driver coils. Do it.
00:37:40All right.
00:37:42I've accessed the capacitance cells.
00:37:45I think I can give you enough for a short burst of impulse.
00:37:48We've got one shot, Captain.
00:37:49You heard her, Mr. Paris. Make the best of it.
00:37:52Aye, Captain. Initiating impulse burst... now.
00:37:57( console beeping )
00:37:58Captain, the creature is reacting.
00:38:00It is approaching rapidly on a collision course.
00:38:03Evasive maneuvers, Lieutenant.
00:38:04We don't have the power for that.
00:38:06The creature is accelerating.
00:38:08I'm losing power. Can't shake him.
00:38:09All hands brace for impact.
00:38:27Structural integrity down to 86 percent.
00:38:30I am beginning to share
00:38:31Lieutenant Torres' views, Captain.
00:38:33Retaliation may become necessary.
00:38:34It's not my intention to harm the creature.
00:38:38The feeling definitely isn't mutual.
00:38:41Mr. Tuvok, launch a class-4 probe.
00:38:42Maybe that will distract the creature long enough for us to get away. Aye, Captain.
00:38:46Probe launched.
00:38:49KIM: Another plasma burst.
00:38:51Shields are down to 64 percent.
00:38:52Looks like the probe just made him angry.
00:38:54This is an aggressive life-form, Captain.
00:38:56He's only going to respond to an aggressive stance from us.
00:38:59TUVOK: Treating the creature as it is treating us might be an appropriate response.
00:39:03We ram him.
00:39:05Precisely.
00:39:06It's probably the response he expects.
00:39:10Captain, shields are at 47 percent.
00:39:12Any more of this and the hull will start to buckle.
00:39:14Mr. Paris, use maneuvering thrusters.
00:39:16Set a course toward the creature.
00:39:18Give him a bump to get his attention.
00:39:20Aye, Captain. Engaging thrusters.
00:39:28The creature is not retreating, Captain.
00:39:31He's just hitting us back harder.
00:39:34Let's try this.
00:39:35Detonate a field of photon charges between Voyager and the creature.
00:39:39Maybe the shock wave will let him know we mean business.
00:39:41Captain, if I may.
00:39:43Maybe we're going about this backwards.
00:39:45Yes, Commander?
00:39:46Every aggressive move we make results in a more aggressive move by the creature.
00:39:50If we're not prepared to use extreme force to destroy him, we need to rethink our actions.
00:39:55I'm listening. If we're right that the creature is responding to us as a sexual rival, we might try behaving in a submissive way.
00:40:02That may appease him. We'd be acknowledging that he's dominant and that we're no match for him. How do we do that?
00:40:07We tried to move away slowly.
00:40:08He wouldn't let us leave.
00:40:10Maybe we need to mimic the behavior of the smaller creatures.
00:40:13We saw them rolling over and changing color.
00:40:15KIM: If we vent plasma residue, that might make us look blue.
00:40:19Mr. Paris, do we have enough power to take Voyager into a roll?
00:40:24I think so.
00:40:25All right. Let's give this a try.
00:40:28Mr. Kim, start venting plasma residue.
00:40:31Mr. Paris, roll the ship.
00:40:35Full power to inertial dampers.
00:40:49He's not responding at all. It's not working.
00:40:52KIM: Wait a minute, Captain. What is it?
00:40:55One of the small creatures is detaching from the starboard nacelle.
00:40:58And another one.
00:41:00They're all letting go.
00:41:04It appears we have lost our sex appeal, Captain.
00:41:09Good piloting, Lieutenant.
00:41:10Now, let's see if we can move away without any interference.
00:41:13I can give you enough thruster power to sustain a speed of 100 kph.
00:41:18Acknowledged.
00:41:19Good work, Commander. In the future, if I have any questions about mating behavior,
00:41:25I'll know where to go.
00:41:43( knife chopping )
00:41:58Can I help?
00:41:59No.
00:42:01Thanks.
00:42:04Is something wrong?
00:42:07No, no, nothing.
00:42:10You've been very quiet ever since I decided not to conceive.
00:42:14It was your choice.
00:42:17I respect that.
00:42:19Neelix...
00:42:22I think you're disappointed.
00:42:27I think... once I decided to become a father,
00:42:34I was looking forward to it.
00:42:38But I'll get over it.
00:42:40Maybe you won't have to get over it.
00:42:42Just wait a little longer.
00:42:44But I thought... this was the only time.
00:42:48The Doctor believes the elogium was false, brought on by the electrophoretic field that those life-forms created.
00:42:57So there's a possibility that I might be able to go through it again at the right age.
00:43:02You mean, we might still be able to have a daughter?
00:43:05Or a son. No.
00:43:07I've thought about it.
00:43:09A daughter, definitely.
00:43:11One who looks just like you.
00:43:24Captain's Log, Stardate 48921.3.
00:43:28I continue to wonder
00:43:30about the issue of procreation aboard the ship.
00:43:32Certainly, it's wrong to interfere
00:43:34with the private lives and decisions of the crew.
00:43:36Yet I remain concerned about the environment
00:43:38we could provide for any child born here.
00:43:46( door chimes )
00:43:47Come in.
00:43:50Yes, Ensign. What can I do for you?
00:43:52I'm sorry to disturb you, Captain, but I thought...
00:43:56I thought I should inform you of my physical condition.
00:44:02Your physical condition?
00:44:06Well, we'd been trying for months.
00:44:09I wasn't even sure until a few days ago.
00:44:11My husband is still at Deep Space 9.
00:44:14He doesn't even know.
00:44:16We were only supposed to be out two or three weeks. Wildman... are you pregnant?
00:44:28I know this isn't the best place to have a baby, but... it's all I have left... of my husband.
00:44:40Well... congratulations, Ensign.